Well, we were having lunch and he went: darling I'll be going away for a few days for ceramic conference during the term break. And I look at him, nodded my head and say go ahead. Pause for a while and once again, he looked at me and I know he wants to say something else. So there I was, sitting in my seat, enjoying my seafood laksa and he said: darling I'll be going down to china with the rest in April, next year, for study trip ??? What? Did I miss out on something here? Well, he's been busy everyday, coming home late. Back in school on weekends. Other than bedtime, we're not together. I spend lots of time with Kenny instead of my partner. Dinner, movie, coffee or just be home relaxing. Though I spend lots of time with Kenny, it's not helping to ease the emptiness I'm feeling. I know clearly why i am feeling this way. It's not that Kenny isn't a good company to hang out with or whatsoever, it's just that he isn't the one whom is able to make me feel whole. It's YOU! I want your time. I need your concern. I hope to have your company. Once a week will be good enough. At least one full day.

I have been sitting here so long wasting time just staring at the phone. I was wondering should i call, then i thought- maybe you're not alone. So give me one more night. One more night, just one more night...For the longest time. If u say goodbye to me tonight there will still be music left to write. Once i thought my innocence was gone but i know happiness still goes on for the longest time. Maybe this wont last very long but you feel so right- but i could be wrong. Maybe i have been hoping too hard. Who knows how much further i can go on. Maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone. But i take my chances and i don't care what consequence it brings. I intend to hold you for the longest time... a long long time!

whoo~ oOoo.....

Cant seem to shake away this emptiness that I've been feeling all week. This void that's lingering just makes the whole week seem so dull. At least when I'm in my studio doing my work, it takes my mind away from all the unnecessary stuffs. Time time time time... YES, time is all i need, i suppose.



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MELBOURNE was AWESOME!

Met Mabelle, the crazy potter, spent the night at Julie Ayton's palace-like mansion. Whipped up a good spread of Asian food for all and families. Phillip Island, Penguin Parade and the Nobbies Center was absolutely wonderful. It brought much joy to Alvin and me by spending such a wonderful quality time with them. Met up with artists, went to the galleries as well as Victoria College of Arts. Walked in the city of Melbourne, having good yummy food is the highlights of the few days spent.

Life can be simple yet beautiful.

Things been alright, at least it did improve for both Alvin and me. However, we'll still bicker but i guess its just that way. Ain't no relationship that does not have any in it. Oh...another thing, Should you guys head to Melbourne, do stay in the Miami Hotel located in west Melbourne. Pretty near to City. Its Really really cheap. I booked the private ensuite room. The room has got all its basic necessity, including Shampoo, body was, conditioner, hand wash and shaving cream for men. The best part...definitely the TOILET! Its clean and huge. Full length mirror, white flooring and a platform shower area. All in glass door. It was so so beautiful. I can spent hours in the toilet :)


Got my results. It was....Alright but well, it definitely could be better. School starting in a week time. Hopefully everyone is in the midst of getting ready and pump up for the new semester. Most of them are graduating this year end and i do hope for the best for all. Im kind of ready to welcome the new semester and i hope its the same for you. May all be WELL, god bless!

Promised Alvin to accompany him to school for his orientation and after which to the gym but guess what.....

I was being Really lazy and didn't want to head to school with him therefore i told him I'll be sleeping in this morning but i will still head to the gym with him in the afternoon when he is done. At about 1pm, he called and i was still in bed.. Hahaha!! So i told him i guess i have to skip gym session today as im really really tired. hahahha! IM just PLAIN LAZY today, i know. Hopefully when he comes home, he wouldn't be too upset with me not keeping my promises... :D

I'll try my best to make it up to him. He's the KING today! :(


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What a week! There have been lots of small little arguments with him since the day he landed in Canberra. These few weeks i personally feel that its a time whereby we both come together again after months of separation and trying to get things back on track. Lots of different perspective, getting impatient with issues, frustrations. He ask if we should have our own space, meaning we both have our own rooms or whatsoever. The problem over here would be, why do we have to stay apart in Canberra when we're staying under the same roof in Singapore. He has his own views and opinions so do i. I seriously am not sure whats going to come out of this but it definitely ain't feeling good.Pretty much torn apart. I hope i wouldn't sink. Its been a difficult journey to start all over again, but i know it'll be fine after given some time to re-adjust the lifestyle. Its a totally brand new environment, a whole new journey and i am not sure whats gonna be like for the both of us. Im keeping my fingers crossed that the trip to Melbourne will do us good, put the differences behind us and try to be more tolerance with one another. I guess we both have to start all over again learning to accept the other party the way he/she is. Everyone's growing and learning, everyone's changing, but we just have to learn to adjust and accept whats in front of us.

Hopefully, all will be good and all the small little arguments will be gone soon.


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My partner finally arrived at Canberra 22:30pm. The flight must have tired him out. He's asleep soundly at this hour whereas i am still wide awake. He asked me whats on my mind but oh well, i guess there isn't much other than the fact that i woke up really late in the afternoon which resulted in me not being able to sleep. Been turning in at about 4am everyday and getting up at 2pm the next day seems to be the routine for the past week. Body clock is messed up i guess. Its time to fine tune it and hopefully get the body clock working well before the next semester begins.

Im yawning... Yawning yawning yawning
But i just cant get to sleep...
This is irritating me...
Been tossing and turning for hours before deciding to get out of bed and surf the net.

I hope the Sleeping bug come soon.....


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